Tuesday, February 9, 2010

1 Year Later: I write to YOU, my bestest friend.

Dearest Angel of Mine,
So here we are. I feel like saying "I miss you" has become part of my everyday conversation with you...I feel like it doesn't even do justice to how I feel anymore. I beyond miss you. I long for your voice, your laugh, your smile, your "Julzies!", Your "Billi's Chilly Trilli" Ugh, your everything baby. I miss you so. I love you more than anything, and I PROMISE YOU: I will continue fighting MY own battles, continue pushing forward in my life, because you didn't get the chance to. I PROMISE YOU: Everyday I am fighting for you, reaching for you, living FOR YOU. I will continue to, everyday for the rest of my life, My Sister. I lost a best friend, but I gained an angel, I store a little bit of heaven everywhere I go. I will remember you in the brisk morning breeze, in the warmth of the sunrise, in the rush of the now, and in the hope seen in the eyes of my first born daughter, who will take on your name, with my honor, my pride, and my longing. So until we meet again in person, my BESTEST FRIEND, we will continue to meet up and hug only in my dreams, and I will continue to droop my head in sadness, as the tears stream down my face, and as I must say goodbye, once again. I.LOVE.YOU.SO.MUCH.JILLIAN SIEGEL...More than words could ever express. Love love love you. Forever Your Trillion. And you, My Billion. I got you Jilli. Always have. Always will. And you will always have me. Rest In Peace my love,
Typing this as you rested your head on your pillow, one year ago, tonight. Here's to you baby. I bow. I pray. I love.


Meg said...

Beautiful, Julie.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you, dear Julz. Your words were beautiful. I'm here if you need anything at all.

Kailey said...

Oh, beautiful Julz. I sit here crying, not knowing your pain fully, but wanting to help in any way possible. Please know that I am here, thinking about you daily. I send my love and enormous hugs.

itsawrapteacher said...

My heart goes out to you!

A Toronto girl out West said...

What a moving and beautiful tribute! Thank-you for reminding me to LIVE for those that can't!

God bless!

From Here to There. In Purple. said...

This is beautiful. You have my thoughts and prayers, darling.

Rebecca <3

Katie said...

Thinking of you, Julz. You and Jilly look so happy together... she was lucky to have such a great friend in you.