1 Year Later: I write to YOU, my bestest friend.

Dearest Angel of Mine,
So here we are. I feel like saying "I miss you" has become part of my everyday conversation with you...I feel like it doesn't even do justice to how I feel anymore. I beyond miss you. I long for your voice, your laugh, your smile, your "Julzies!", Your "Billi's Chilly Trilli" Ugh, your everything baby. I miss you so. I love you more than anything, and I PROMISE YOU: I will continue fighting MY own battles, continue pushing forward in my life, because you didn't get the chance to. I PROMISE YOU: Everyday I am fighting for you, reaching for you, living FOR YOU. I will continue to, everyday for the rest of my life, My Sister. I lost a best friend, but I gained an angel, I store a little bit of heaven everywhere I go. I will remember you in the brisk morning breeze, in the warmth of the sunrise, in the rush of the now, and in the hope seen in the eyes of my first born daughter, who will take on your name, with my honor, my pride, and my longing. So until we meet again in person, my BESTEST FRIEND, we will continue to meet up and hug only in my dreams, and I will continue to droop my head in sadness, as the tears stream down my face, and as I must say goodbye, once again. I.LOVE.YOU.SO.MUCH.JILLIAN SIEGEL...More than words could ever express. Love love love you. Forever Your Trillion. And you, My Billion. I got you Jilli. Always have. Always will. And you will always have me. Rest In Peace my love,
YOUR "JULZIES!"
08.30.1988-02.10.2009
Typing this as you rested your head on your pillow, one year ago, tonight. Here's to you baby. I bow. I pray. I love.