Tuesday, February 10, 2009

After a Courageous Battle, An angel gets her wings...

It utterly breaks my heart, as I sit in a ball on my bedroom floor writing this post, to announce that my JilliBilli, after a courageous battle with Leukemia, passed away this morning. I cannot explain how I feel right now. My heart hurts so badly. I feel so guilty for being here, alive. I have never felt like this before, but I literally am so ashamed of how I have WASTED my life, thus far. Jilli was 0NE IN A MILLI0N. She was one of the funniest, SWEETEST, and BRAVEST people I have ever known. She friended me when I first started at my new school in 6th grade, and ever since then, we were inseparable. She went to Penn State with me, and was my roommate until I left, and ugh--- i just have no words.




JILLIAN SIEGEL, I WILL ALWAYS L0VE Y0U. I know you are an angel in heaven. Until we meet again, someday, Best Friends Forever and Ever ... Rest In Peace. 3C0142DB-2E6C-4C3F-9B0F-521D9BB40CEF.jpeg




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37 comments:

Rose said...

Julz - I am so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you.

VeggieGirl said...

Julz, you're in my deepest thoughts and prayers. She will be looking over you forever.

wholefoodswholeme said...

I am thinking of you lovely julz. i am so sorry, this is painful even for someone who didn't know her.

fitnessnyc said...

Julz, hang in there. I know how you feel, I have lost two very close friends, in terrible accidents. My heart goes out to you.

Caitlin at Healthy Tipping Point said...

many many hugs! im so sorry.

livelaughlyss said...

you are in my prayers my love. i feel as if we've gotten so close for not knowing each other, and i hope hope hope you know you can turn to me for anything! if there's anything, no matter how small, that i can do to help you, do NOT hesitate to ask. i love you, hang in there. thinking of you! xoxo <3

jenniisst said...

i am so sorry that you lost someone so close and so important to you. i'll be keeping you and her friends and relatives in my thoughts and prayers. know that she's proud of you and she's still supporting you in everything that you do, and that you will see her again someday. if i could reach across a few states and give you a huge hug, i would.

Erin of Care to Eat said...

Julz, it sounds like you learned so much from your beautiful friend. This is a powerful tribute. I am thinking of you and I love you! Call me if you want to talk.

greendogwine said...

Julz - I am so so sorry. I know those words probably don't mean much right now, but please know I'm thinking about you and Jillian - and her family as well.

whatiateyesterday said...

Julz, my deepest sympathies go out to you. I will keep you and yours in my thoughts. You are in my heart.

Maddy said...

Im so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers.

aussirish said...

julz im so so sorry to hear of your loss, your in my thoughts and prayers,
if you need ANYTHING at all message me hun,
xxxx

ttfn300 said...

oh my gosh, so sorry to hear about about such a good friend. you're in my thoughts, {{{{{{julz}}}}}}

chandra said...

Oh Julz, I'm so SO sorry to hear about your loss. :( You're in my thoughts. And remember my msg from the other night - ANY TIME you need, I mean it!! *HUGS*

Diana said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I visited your blog today because so many bloggers have sung your praises, and while I am saddened by the news of your friend's passing, I think you did right by writing about it. That's why you have a blog - to express yourself - and it is more than clear that there is a huge community out there that loves and supports you! Glad to count myself as one of them now.

flower said...

Im so so sorry to hear your sad news, you looked so happy together in your photos and I just wish I could say something that could make you feel better

jenngirl said...

Julz, I'm a truly sorry for your loss. You know that you are in my deepest thoughts and prayers. I love you.

loveofoats.com said...

julz ~ I am deeply saddened about your loss... i will keep you and your friends and family in my prayers... im so sorry that this happened :( i know that your friend must have cherished everything you did for her, i know how much you brighten up all of our days so i can imagine how much you meant to her and vice versa... she is definitely looking down on you and smiling

emily said...

I am so sorry for your loss, I will be keeping you, and her family in my thoughts

aTxVegn said...

Oh, Julz, I'm so sorry you are hurting. Please know you have my most sincere sympathy.

Molls said...

ah, girl, I am terribly sorry to hear of your loss of such a great girl and friend. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. xoxo

apluseating said...

im really sorry about your loss. your words are very touching. i am praying for you.

Maggie said...

Julz I am so sorry. You're in my thoughts love.

dailygoods said...

i am so very sorry for your loss. Im thinking of you and you are in my prayers.

Simple and Divine said...

I am speechless. Touched. Thank you so. <333 If I'm not commenting for a little, you know why. Thank you all so much.

eatingbender said...

Julz, I am so, so very sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you and keeping Jillian in my thoughts and prayers, too. You are a beautiful person and your words brought me to tears. I am here for you if you need anything at all. <3<3<3<3<3

Vegan On Stage said...

julz..

im so sorry to hear that you have lost a friend. Dont feel selfish or terrible for being alive, and you havent wasted your life... your friendship to her probably meant more than you will ever know.

stay strong.. and know that you have a support group wherever you are...

we love you!

talieworld said...

Julz, I am so sorry for your loss. Seeing the pictures of you guys just made me cry. She was so lucky to have a friend like you through her battle and I know she will be watching out for you. Your in my prayers hun.

just me said...

hugs julz. i'm so sorry about your friend and you and her family are in my thoughts. she's always going to be there for you.

emilydh211 said...

girl im so sorry for your lose and you are with me in my thoughts and prayers. I LOVE YOU! <3 you know the number if you need anything at all!

healthy ashley said...

Julz, I am so sorry. I couldn't imagine what you're going through. We're here for you...

*Erica* said...

Love you so much, Julz! The best way you can honor Jillian is to live your life to the fullest. Love, laugh, smile, and thank God for the time He gave you two together. Hang in there! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Andrea of Care to Eat said...

To be a friend of yours is a gift indeed - I'm sure you touched her life as much as she did yours. There are no words that can bring you true comfort during this time, but my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your friends during this time. Love :)
Andrea

Meghann said...

oh Julz... you made me tear up. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. DOn't forget the blog world is here for you! I <3 you!

It's stories like yours is why I am running the race in May for LLS. I want to run and raise money in your friend's memory so other leukemia patients out there will have hope and the ability to battle as yours did.

Thinspired said...

Julz, I am late checking in on your blog and I am so, so sorry to read about your loss. HUGS to you during this time.

seeleelive (for the love of peanut butter) said...

julz...i just went back and looked at the past 6 posts or so...and wow!...I am speechless? i dont really know what to say. My heart is with you and Jilli's family in this time of hardship.

Stay strong, and hold on.

bhealthier said...

AHHH!!! Oh my goodness, I just read through all of your latest posts and I am speechless.

you are truly one of the most amazing persons I have ever met and I am so sorry for your loss.